I had an audition last Friday, and in my opinion – did not do a good job.
“A-B-C. A-Always, B-Be, C-Closing. Always be closing, always be closing.”
I had just been given a Glengary opportunity, and I did not feel like a closer.
I called my manager, to let her know the audition was over, and as best I could said, “It was great.”
“Ok, well I’ll let you know as soon as I hear from them.”
I love her attitude. She’s so caring, optimistic and unflappable.
No less than an hour later my phone rings, and sure enough it’s her letting me know that they put a pin in me, and that we should know on Monday whether or not I had booked the part. WHAT?! Seriously?
My self-doubting mind immediately kicked in, and I replayed the audition over-and-over again. Each time, I felt like I could have done so much better.
Flash forward to Monday afternoon when my phone rings again and it’s Tina letting me know that I had in fact booked the job and will shoot the week after Thanksgiving. After calling my wife, and doing the Balki Bartokomous Dance of Joy, I stopped to think about what had just happened and came to the following conclusions:
- We’re our toughest critics. As actors, we are not qualified judges of our own work. It’s impossible for us to be objective.
- As much as we may think that we have it figured out – there really is no telling what “they” are looking for.
- When we stay present, and go with whatever moment presets itself – we open ourselves up to let something greater come out.
So with tomorrow being Thanksgiving there is so much to be thankful for. One is for the many relationships that I have built over the last two years working at The Actor’s Key. Those relationships are no doubt what got me in the door, and I can only imagine what helped me book the role.
The journey up until now has been exciting, frustrating, thrilling and exhausting. I have wanted to quit and throw in the towel many more times that I’d like to admit. But just like 2009 -I’m not dead yet.
Happy Thanksgiving, and next week I start a new video series on Casting Director Workshops and how to make the most of them as an actor.